…is it’s really easy to find a whole bunch of people who have the same stupid issue you have. A teeming mass of humanity all bitching and moaning about the same dang thing. And you realize that indeed you are NOT a special unicorn with a special unicorn problem. Which just makes you want to... Continue Reading →
I’ve made it pretty plain that I have had one main muse for a looong time, and my recent rude awakening on the topic of limerence had to do with them. However, I’d be remiss to give them all the flowers, since when I think back, there have been MANY “Limerent Objects” (LOs) over the... Continue Reading →
I’ve always thought limerence was simply the term for the honeymoon part of a new romantic and/or sexual relationship. But recently, watching one of those questionable YouTube videos by someone who may or may not be an actual mental health expert, I had a eureka moment that “limerence” is probably the right word for the... Continue Reading →
It’s amazing how just ending a baseless fantasy and committing to letting mental habits go - which has absolutely no material, quantifiable implications - still feels like a tangible loss that requires a healing process. You become aware how many things you saw through a very particular lens, and how many experiences and activities you... Continue Reading →
If you know me at all, you know my ability to craft elaborate fantasies knows no bounds. Some kids on the internet these days have come around to my level of self-mythologizing, given that they talk about dressing or acting like “the MC (main character)” in their own lives. It’s rich that I have traditionally... Continue Reading →
Let me start by saying I remember All The Criticisms. With my last and final ex, there was a seemingly-out-of-nowhere pronouncement of dislike for my low-slung turquoise corduroys; a snickering comparison of my stompy, jerky goth club dancing to The Elaine Benes; and, eventually - when the relationship was on its last legs - a... Continue Reading →
1) I am forty and a half. That’s it. That’s the post. I’m kidding. For real, though, let’s recap. Despite interviews I feel proud of when they’re over, I have now been declined for FIVE internal, lateral-move analyst positions in as many years. Quick reminder that these positions tend to have anywhere between 60 and... Continue Reading →
So, folks. The last time I wrote about my music gear situation, I had just bought a Music Production Center (the Akai MPC One) to use as the centerpiece of a laptop-less live performance rig. My thought was that building songs from sequences, then triggering them in real-time to create the backdrop I'd perform over,... Continue Reading →
(A sequel to my last entry) And so it was that, after lately ruminating on the void left by one acquaintance lost, I accidentally rediscovered a different acquaintance. I’ll preface with this: my domestic partner (DP) is an amazing person - the kind who is incapable of feeling jealousy because he understands complexity, who is... Continue Reading →
The other night, at a rock show, in a face mask, straight-hair wig (I'm known as a curly-haired being), and t-shirt from an NYC souvenir shop that said “Do I look like a f*cking people person?” I stood for over half an hour next to an ex I was with for nearly five years, and... Continue Reading →
The Sold Kingdom 