1) I am forty and a half. That’s it. That’s the post. I’m kidding. For real, though, let’s recap. Despite interviews I feel proud of when they’re over, I have now been declined for FIVE internal, lateral-move analyst positions in as many years. Quick reminder that these positions tend to have anywhere between 60 and... Continue Reading →
MPC One and Done.
So, folks. The last time I wrote about my music gear situation, I had just bought a Music Production Center (the Akai MPC One) to use as the centerpiece of a laptop-less live performance rig. My thought was that building songs from sequences, then triggering them in real-time to create the backdrop I'd perform over,... Continue Reading →
Healthy Tension.
(A sequel to my last entry) And so it was that, after lately ruminating on the void left by one acquaintance lost, I accidentally rediscovered a different acquaintance. I’ll preface with this: my domestic partner (DP) is an amazing person - the kind who is incapable of feeling jealousy because he understands complexity, who is... Continue Reading →
The Lure of Incognito
The other night, at a rock show, in a face mask, straight-hair wig (I'm known as a curly-haired being), and t-shirt from an NYC souvenir shop that said “Do I look like a f*cking people person?” I stood for over half an hour next to an ex I was with for nearly five years, and... Continue Reading →
Contemplations in the Aftermath of a Trip to NYC
The first time I ever heard the music of Chan Marshall (better known as Cat Power), an old friend had sat me down in front of V for Vendetta (the 2005 film) to study my reaction to its moral ambiguity. We were in our early-mid twenties, just reunited after several years, and he’d deliberately eschewed... Continue Reading →
Thoughts During an MRI That Was Full of Sound and Fury and Signified Nothing
-But, but you didn’t even ASK me if I wanted to listen to my Pink Floyd CD for maximum sci-fi experience. -Ahh, I see… this is one of those more barbaric types of MRIs I read about, with none of the modern amenities. Cool, cool. But thanks for the backlit plexiglass mural of lilies up... Continue Reading →
Surrender.
My last post hinted at a certain abandon in pursuit of intense feeling, and suggested more related musings were to come. So here we are. The other day I was explaining to DP that my tendency to hyperfocus on the art project of the moment, complete with frustrating technical challenges, improbable learning curves, and rhetorical... Continue Reading →
Wherein Your Humble Narrator Wades into Murky Waters.
[Note: I have a ton of other art-things I sorely need to do, and in fact WANT to do, but which are difficult to say the least - so of course this is the moment I choose to finish and release this obsolete blog post that has been sitting in draft since last summer. Looking... Continue Reading →
Anti-Valentine’s Special!
https://youtu.be/U_4xHi6_KoQ I really like you, I'm attracted to youThe way you move, the things you doI'll probably burn in hell for saying thisBut I'm really in heaven whenever we kissBut oh no, you won't change meYou can try for an eternityI wouldn't sacrifice anything at allTo loveTake a look at unsuspecting casesYou'll find love has... Continue Reading →
Gear Thoughts: Assembling a Live Performance Rig
For the edification of any passing strangers in a similar position (Pictured: My current home recording station) 1/23/2023 It’s easy to be a headless chicken researching potential purchases. I had to remind myself that I’m trying to put forth a distinct creative vision and so need to set goals from that standpoint: what tools will... Continue Reading →
The Sold Kingdom 