2024 in a nutshell: I dedicated myself to filling the vacancies that created the desire that has traditionally gotten me in trouble, and fought tooth and nail to see the things that do not serve me as inherently unattractive. Progress is a series of small revelations, and it is not always linear. Highlights: I busted... Continue Reading →
Last night, in the Faneuil Hall Hyatt in Boston, full of too much espresso martini from a neighborhood bar… I read an obituary that made me cry. I had only a very indirect, long-obsolete association with the departed. My partner was planning where to sightsee the next day. I cried silently in the bathroom for... Continue Reading →
I’ve always thought limerence was simply the term for the honeymoon part of a new romantic and/or sexual relationship. But recently, watching one of those questionable YouTube videos by someone who may or may not be an actual mental health expert, I had a eureka moment that “limerence” is probably the right word for the... Continue Reading →
It’s amazing how just ending a baseless fantasy and committing to letting mental habits go - which has absolutely no material, quantifiable implications - still feels like a tangible loss that requires a healing process. You become aware how many things you saw through a very particular lens, and how many experiences and activities you... Continue Reading →
If you know me at all, you know my ability to craft elaborate fantasies knows no bounds. Some kids on the internet these days have come around to my level of self-mythologizing, given that they talk about dressing or acting like “the MC (main character)” in their own lives. It’s rich that I have traditionally... Continue Reading →
...you might come off like a housecat dragging home a kill. You think you've given people a treasure, but their only thought might well be, "ew". ...while you might feel unburdened, they may associate you with unwanted emotional labor, and they have the right to say to themselves, "Nope" ...you might remind them of a... Continue Reading →
Coming off a three-day weekend during which I (in addition to other household chores)..... -Did a deeper than usual cleaning (DP helped) and bought new pillows to combat recent allergy flares-Did a ton of stretching and other exercising to combat my chronic, undiagnosed-despite-x-ray-and-rheuma-visit back problems, which also alternate between being tailbone, trap, pec, elbow, and... Continue Reading →
The Sold Kingdom 